Plant Down – An ADHD Catastrophe

I went for the handle on the door, I missed.

Or rather I grabbed something, and pulled. It wasn’t the door knob.

It was my plant stand. Full of beautiful basil I was basically farming in my kitchen. Ready for creating a lovely pesto with.

Not me, I don’t cook, I can’t be trusted with a stove. But Thomas would have made a glorious pesto pasta for me…

But of course the horror of downing the basil..

Was nowhere near as miserable as the slaughter of my favourite incredibly affordable pots I got essentially for free from Lidl because they came with plants in them and I have those out in the garden…

But you see how close the handle was there? How could one imagine not grabbing the plant stand instead?

Yeah, I agree, not very close at all. Yeah I agree, no one else would’ve been anywhere near likely to make this mistake.

Not sure how one anyone could have mistaken a literal slab of bamboo wood for a round metal doorknob either, but it seems my brain hiccups on me when I least expect it and alas.. the onslaught..

I won’t say this one was easy for me to shake off. To laugh off. It wasn’t. This sunk me down to the darkest of places, the direst despair.

I mourned those pots. That mess. The basil (which obviously I threw out, I wasn’t about to risk eating fragments of ceramic I’d not managed to pick out). The pots.

Yes I said the pots already. Yes they were cheap. But I liked them and they were mine.

It probably took me 3 years to get rid of the fragments of the pot that were left, I kept hoarding them in hopes of thinking of “something to make with them.” I finally gave up.

And years later I can look back at this moment and think of it all as a warning.. if your hand reaches and pulls a plant stand once (as it had before this incident).. move the plant stand.

Move the plant stand, Elise. It’s 100% foreshadowing the future.

Of course I didn’t move the plant stand after this, I replaced it with pots that could not break. And then when I realized this glitch in my brain keeps happening and leading me to nearly end up in the same catastrophe…

I finally accepted reality meant that I could not put a plant stand on that countertop.

And so the chapter ended.